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~jap tidur dulu.. mana tau dapat mimpi utk new year resolusi.. haha~

Selepas four days sleeping, now i know what i want to do and what i want to achieve in 2006.

1. To serve my parent in most excellent way : To be good daughter to them, to pamper them, to increase their allowance, to be everything to them, to less mengajuk, etc
Note: To love you both all my heart, and hope Allah panjangkan umur both of you so that you can see your child’s success

2. To be ‘malaysian idol’ among my sibling and nephews : To stop garang2 ;-), to constantly support you guys, to understand you guys well, to help you guys in everything you all do..
Note: To strengthen and tighten our relationships so that we can rely on each other.. Luv u guys! Esp Emir and Ezad (Emir hari ni (4.1.05) register di international Islamic Kindergarden di USJ.. hope you be good ok sayang..)

3. To be everything to my sweetheart : To understand you, to support you mentally and physically, to tolerate with you, to be there when you need me, to be at your back when u busy, to be your heals when you sick, to be your OSIM massager when you dizzy ;-), to be your mood lifter (ke reducer) when you moody, to be your air to breath, to be your food to eat and to be your soul to live, to be your good fiance future to be, to be your good wife future to be and at last to be his wanna be.. hikhikhik..
Note: Love you today, tommorrow and forever..

4. To my current and future Bosses and Company : To strive harder, to benefit you guys, and to and to la, so that i can get early promoted!
Note: Hope to be precious diamond, to be valuable stone, to be stunning lady in A.T.S.B or ????

5. To my Friends : To be a good friend, a good listener, a good partner, a good motivater, a good advisor

6. To people indirectly and directly know me : Entah la, stay kewl kot!

Resolution to my self : Hope to success in my Career, my Personal life (family etc), my Love life, and my whole life and above all Excellent in duniyawi and ukhrawi..

30-12-2005, Friday:

bye bye 2005… 2005 in memories.. A new year to celebrate and a year to left.. 2005 gives a meaningful life and memories to be.. memories to be remembered, memories to be last and memories to be learnt..

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                                                   2005 in Memories
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1. Got increment .. thats the definite excitement
2. Got the chance to work with Executive Director of SKALI Mr Azmi Ahmad
3. Got new Nokia 6670 worth *.*K .. sebab tak terfikir dapat beli HP with that price..
4. Got DELL laptop.. ease me to do the work fr home urgghhh
5. Got my self a new lotus.. waty savvy
6. Got my everlasting babe.. wan ahmad saufi wan abdul razak (01.08.05)
7. Got the chance to celebrate his birthday.. as first time couple (10.09.05)
8. Got the chance to meet his family members .. this was during raya
9. My lil sis enrollment.. dapat masuk UITM, alhamdulillah..
10. My good fren engagement Amiey - Ayien
11. Got new workplace, with nice view and nice people.. in front KLCC..thanks TAS
12. Both my parents dapat Anugerah Cemerlang.. hehe anak dia tak dapat pun…
13. Most of all got wonderful suprise during my birthday (21.12.05)
14.Manage to complete Top Up course (tapi result tak tau..)
15.Manage to send Master Application Form (tapi proposal tak hantar)
16.Manage to maintain my life and family (tapi tak luxury la)
17.Manage to overcome anger and sensitiveness (tapi tak jugak)
18.Manage to fulfill frens expectation on me even im a busy girl (tak jugak)
19.Still manage to hang out with my frens eventhough ari tu tak g S’pore
20.Most of All, manage to get what i want… this YEAR!
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This is what i can think so far.. will probably add somemore.. THANKS ALLAH, thanks for fulfilling my wishes and thanks for giving me everything… Thanks 2005…

fondly,
watie zakaria

21-12-2005 Wednesday 12:39 am

Dear Life,

Thanks Allah, Thanks for make my life real this time. Thanks for fullfilling half of my wishes and thanks for giving me such wonderful journey in life.. bitter and sweet but i managed to go through until to this date and to this age.. Im 25 today.. whats so special of being "25ian".. what special for me is still be living in this earth, with my greatest family, greatest friends, greatest relatives and most of all greatest life partner.. He is there for me, be there for me, and everything for me.. through the hardship and difficuties… but still.. here we are.. Thanks God for the blessed!

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She’s lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she’s my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, forever, you’ll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part
Oh, how I’ll love you
Together, together, that’s how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, forever, you’ll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I’ll love you
Together, together, that’s how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you.

My birthday suprise and gifts that i will never forget..  He is there for me.. suprising, with his workload and distance, but still, he managed to be with me in my big day.. 60 min of precious time.. thanks dear.. thank u.. u always make me in tears.. can’t describe in words.. from august till now, he never stop sacrifice.. he’s one yang mengalah, yang asik pujuk me even though he got tired, yang bersusah payah jumpa i.. yang bersusah payah call i sampai kaki dia kene gigit nyamuk.. yang selalu marah i bila i buat salah.. yang selalu percaya and give his full trust to me.. yang selalu cerita his stand to me eventhough i jarang .. sebab i tak geti.. dia yang selalu think of me.. and make me feel so alive.. dia yang selalu jaga what to wear and what to eat.. haha.. walaupun kekadang i feel.. what the.. hehe neway.. he changed me alot.. this 5 months and hope months and years to go.. we improve! can’t wait to be with him.. THANKS ALOT.

i wish to earn good living and good money.. 

19-12-2005, Monday.. Im officially operated in KL opis, no more serdang and good bye TOL 1.30.. apa nama tol tu ek? hmm tak ingat la..bye bye MINES.. hmm tak besh pun shopping sana…

But well, now.. easier move, located in front of KLCC, Avenue K, and near AM Bank, senang nak bayo keta.. but well, not burdening me to drive .. the trafics.. bye bye jam.. but welcome tin sardin.. haha… uwaa.. naik LRT kene beratur, berebut, ber and ber.. hmm well.. this life goes… tapi luckily, this morning, i met my best fren.. ehhe dak amiey.. dah lama tak jumpa dia.. since tukar title nih.. miss the old days to MITC.. miss the talk, the food and the spree..

bye UPM MTDC Blok C

Cinta adalah anugerah. Membuat kita ketawa, membuat kita bernyanyi, membuat kita sedih, membuat kita menangis, membuat kita bertanya kenapa?’, membuat kita menerima, membuat kita memberi. Dan yang paling penting, Membuat kita merasa hidup.

Bukanlah kehadiran atau ketidakhadiran yang penting. Kita tidak perlu merasa kesepian meskipun kita sedang sendiri. Sendiri itu perlu juga, tapi jangan sampai membuat kita merasa kesepian. Yang menjadi masalahnya sekarang adalah, bukan berada bersama seseorang, tetapi berada untuk seseorang.

Jangan pernah ragu-ragu untuk menyatakan cinta. Jujurlah dengan apa yang kita rasa dan katakan. Tidak akan ada ruginya untuk mengekspresikan diri. Ambil kesempatan untuk mengungkapkan pada seseorang betapa pentingnya dia untuk kita. Lakukanlah, buat perubahan dan hindari penyesalan.

Cinta menawarkan titis-titis air yang sungguh menyejukkan. Setiap titisannya menghidupkan jiwa yang gersang. Setiap titisannya adalah syurga. Manakala kebencian menyebarkan aroma darah, menitiskan air mata. Setiap titisannya membuat jiwa menjadi gersang. Tiap titisnya adalah api, membakar kehidupan. Panas yang luar biasa. Cinta menggerakkan kebaikan. Kebencian memunculkan kejahatan. Sejarah kebaikan adalah sejarah cinta. Sejarah kejahatan adalah sejarah kebencian. Maka tebarkanlah cinta di segenap penjuru dunia. Berjalanlah dengan cinta. Siramlah setiap relung jiwa yang hampa dengan cinta, niscaya ia menjadi hidup dan penuh pesona.

Have you ever sacrifies for someone you love? And when you said if any changes that can make him happy and even u’r not, u just let it be.. And what if the one you love just got tired of you, bored for your attitude, can he changed just like that?.. i take all my life to love someone and in just a snap, he just want to change. And, when u are sincerely in love, but people just take for granted for it, do you still want to proceed? But when u’r in love, no matter how it goes apart, you just want him, and no matter how he screwed you up your life with your simple mistakes and past, you just need him.. and have you consider for a change? or have you consider to proceed? now you tell me..i did not do for my good, but if you keep trying and trying and it still not the best.. will you proceed? and if you already tore the heart of your love one, and you feel so guilty, contempt and feel awful of yourself, do you still want to proceed?

Selalu kubayangkan bagaimanakah
agaknya rasa ditempatmu
disamping kekasih yg membelai
hati dan perasaanmu oh kawanku

malu ku nak cerita
kerana ku tak mahu
kau sampai baca rahsiaku
biarlah tak siapa yg tahu
gejolak didunia batinku

c/o zahir kau lihat bukan segala-gala
bibir tersenyum menutup jiwa yg luka
zahir kau lihat hanya antara lapis
mataku sinar bergenang tangis

memang nasib bercinta
kerap terhenti di simpang hidup,
rindu dan cahaya
kekasih yg setia
kekasih yg amat sempurna cintanya
demi cinta yg benar…

The guy who loves you will do anything for you, he will be there every second when ur heart glooms. And he still be there even there are too much sins u commit. And he will never count each single thing cause he just loves you..and when everything tore apart, and he leaves u alone..probably that gives you the hint when to hold and when to let it go..When moment comes, ur just helpless, but dont blame ur self, and dont blame others, cause what had happened only HE knows why.. GOD knows why..

Jangan di ucap selamat tinggal
Pada diri ku yang menantikan mu
Telah kau tunai seribu janji
Satu kau mungkiri …
Hidup bersama ku

Tidakkah kau kasihan
Kepadaku yang mengharapkan cinta mu
Mengalir airmata ku
Merintih dalam pilu bila kau berlalu.

Serikan semula mahligai hati yang lara
Bertahun lama ku tunggu
Bertaut cinta yang satu (dengan mu)

Berikan ku cinta
Sembuhkan luka lama
Selagi kasih membara
Daku setia selamanya

Jangan diucapkan perpisahan
Sayup suaramu membungakan rindu
Pasrahku di dalam kerinduan
Kasih padamu
Subur di hatiku.

26th November – I went for two open houses ;-).. tetiba ajer rasa cam tak tau nak tulis apa, tapi nak tulis gak, in BM ok tak.. hmm tapi tak ada mood hari ini.. tapi keje dah siap..tapi tak tau nak buat apa.. tapi mengantuk.. tapi nak tulis gak.. tapi …

I buat open house this date, really last minute invitation sebab there something to fix, so for those yang lambat baca email tu .. so sorry la ek, coz I assumed that people will open their email selalu as what I did… 

I’ve started preparing on Friday night, balik keja terus change uniform and start to silat around in my house.. haha.. panjat sana sini bawak turun periuk.. igloo, pinggan mangkuk. I just loved early preparation because don’t want to lost control the next day, too bad only me and jehan at home, my mom.. chief chef.. she only in charge for the cooking.. tepat jam 1.00 am, we finished 60%, meja dah ready .. rumah dah clean up and kuah laksa dah siap.. hahaha…

Then, masuklah hari yang menakutkan bagi ku, bukan hari open house rumah ku, tapi nak pi open house rumah auntie’s saufi.. uwaaa.. really freak me out.. well.. I have got to do what I’ve got to do, must be there occasion.. hehe (kidding).. hehe.. as usual, siap siap kan kerja kat umah, masak2 .. menu di rumah ku.. nasi beriyani, ayam masak merah, kari daging and laksa johor, special made by my homie chef.. MY MOM.. wa lla.. .. Open house ku start at 8.00 pm Hehe

Notice something, I mixed up my story to tell.. hehe, dunno how to start .. where to begin.. hehe.. well anyway, get back to auntie saufi, hehe .. bertolak pukul 2.30 pm, sampai sana pukul 3.00 – 7.00p.m.. and saufi buat surprise.. really really surprise.. HIS PARENT WILL ALSO BE THERE .. surprise surprise surprise, almost got stomache, headache, takutache, seriously.. never been in this situation before.. imagine, nak raya umah auntie dia pun I did not get enough sleep coz too much thinking about it.. nih baru tau on the dot that his parent also be there.. bayangkan.. tak sempat nak cakap pape… but well.. nak buat camne.. terpaksa harungi.. nicest experience.. hehe.. my first time met his auntie ina, auntie ani, aunt, uncles, his sis – iza.. cousins etc.. and moment to come when his parent arrived along with his sis – nabila and his bro – min.. UWAA

First time meeting ‘someone special’ family.. hmm I think it went well tapi tak tau la.. hehe.. im the kind of person yang less talk with the elder, seriously, no topics in mind to talk about. Hehe.. I’ve got everyone advise.. but bila jejakkan kaki kat umah auntie ina.. semua jadi kosong. Hehe.. is it a night mare or what nih.. hmm why im so worried about it huh. Hehe.. dunno la.. and auntie ina, several times stop by at our spot, pas tu dia cakap, takut ker.. hehe.. one of his auntie cakap.. wah tangan dah mengeletar.. uwaa.. that’s.. really really help.. hehe…

Before went to auntie ina house, I seek advise from everyone, siti, mazlina, amiey, is, min, my sistas and most important, my mom.. hehe.. my mom lagi lak.. tak risau langsung.. anak dia dah nak pengsan memikirkan pun.. dia buat dek aje.. at the end, I conclude and I think because.. in this occasion, we cannot rely on others, have to stand on our own, just be urself.. and depends on our own self-believing, self-nurturing, self-entertaining the elder.. hahahaha.. dunno la.. help me saufi.. Anyway, great foods, great acquaintances, great family… macam2 lauk ada, nasi dagang for sure, satay, bee hoon, etc. plus rumah auntie ina sungguhla lawa…

7.00 pm sharp, we bertolak balik umah.. ini mesti banyak pinggan makan menanti untuk di cuci.. hehe.. balik umah, my mom and jehan dah angkat kening and tinggal nak gelak kan I ajer.. My house, biasa biasa ajer, like old days.. happening ker? Haha.. happened la..